While in the middle of Day 1's study, a woman standing at the door of Starbucks, where I do all my work, spoke to me. She said,"Are you reading something good today?" I had my Bible out, my journal, and Strong's so it it was obvious what she was refering to. I replied by saying,"I really am and boy do I need it! I've been through so much. My husband was killed a year ago and it's time for me to get back on my feet spiritually." She said,"God will fill you." That's all she said...not another word. Next, her friend came back with her drink and as they were walking out of the door, she tapped me and said,"God bless you." I just teared up...think about it. "God will fill you." I've spoken to many about what happend and I've never received that kind of response. EVER. I usually get this long drawn out mini speach about how is looking down on me. To me, it was more of a prophecy spoken over me because the next verse I read out of the Bible was Titus 3:5!
Then, I had just typed up the last few sentences of Day1's blog. If you go back and read it, you'll see that I wrote about no more pain, anger....etc. Well, I was packing up all my stuff and I heard a song playing. "There will be a day" by Jeremy Camp. The words to that song went right along with what I had just typed! A girl had left her cell phone in the seat next to me while she was buying her drink. She came back and I just said to myself,"Wow, of all the cell phone ringers and she has that one. Of all the places to sit and she sat next to me and left her phone in her seat and it rang for the first time since she had first sat down" I am so overwhelmed right now...it took everything in me not to burst out crying with joy right there in Starbucks. Why does God love me so much?
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Monday, September 14, 2009
Day 1-"Help me be renewed" Phil 2:13
"For it is God which worketh in you, both to will, & to do of His good pleasure." KJV Phil 2:13
One thing I do when I study is pick out key words & look up the meaning in my Strong's Exaustive Concordance of the Bible. What this book does is give you them meaning of a word pertaining to that verse. There are many words in the Bible that mean something different from one verse to the next...anyway, that was just a little FYI.
So reading this verse and looking up the bold faced words above, here is my conclusion:
To me, this verse is saying that it is by the Lord's power, not ours, that one is driven to please Him & to do it gladly. His powerful, effectual, & operative (worketh)work performed in a true Christian is what decreases sin in one's life because one knows it displeases Him thus being inclined (will) to delight and please Him (pleasure) so one is less likely to behave as one once did before one surrendered to Him. In contrast, when one decides, like I did, to supress the work or ignore it and turn from that work, backslidding occurs. Amazingly, that mighty (worketh) work that God started never ceases & one is pulled back to Him. CONFIRMATION here! Hence, the reason I'm desiring to get back on the purpose of pleasing God. The work that God began on June 8th, 2003 in me is so powerful that even though I've cursed Him, shamed His name by becoming the hypocrit of the century, & defiled my body with sin, that work-this scripture- is being manifested! Among many other verses that I'm sure I'll come across.....Lets see, shall we??
PS.51:10, IS.40:31, Rom.12:2, 2 Cor4:16, Col.3:10 & Titus 3:5
"Not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to His mercy, He saved us, by the washing of regeneration, & renewing of the Holy Ghost."
I chose to study Titus 3:5 because it really seemed to be the applicable to me right now in conjunction with what I learned from Phil.2:13. I also read from vs 3-5. For me, my life is 100% accurate to verse 3. I've been foolish in my choices, very disobedient to the Word, deceived in believing that I was ok, feeding my flesh in immoral ways, living with anger towards God, & being envious of married couples, hatefull towards people @ time...BUT GOD still loves and has appeared to me in countless ways! Even in my mess...I can't count the things He has done to tell me,"I love you & will not forsake you." But back to Titus-There is nothing I have done to deserve His love & will to renew me. It is because of His assured (according) compassion (mercy) Phil.2:13 says His power working in me will in turn cause Titus 3:5 to manifest! The word saved in this verse means deliver, protect, heal, preserve, do well, make whole. He is saving me again (regeration) by renovating (renewing) the Holy Ghost in me. I received the baptism of the Holy Ghost almost 6.5 years ago but because I have neglected it (1 Tim4:14) & grieved it (Eph4:30) it must and WILL BE built up again..saving me from all my pain, anger, & self destruction. PRAISE GOD! I cannot wait!
One thing I do when I study is pick out key words & look up the meaning in my Strong's Exaustive Concordance of the Bible. What this book does is give you them meaning of a word pertaining to that verse. There are many words in the Bible that mean something different from one verse to the next...anyway, that was just a little FYI.
So reading this verse and looking up the bold faced words above, here is my conclusion:
To me, this verse is saying that it is by the Lord's power, not ours, that one is driven to please Him & to do it gladly. His powerful, effectual, & operative (worketh)work performed in a true Christian is what decreases sin in one's life because one knows it displeases Him thus being inclined (will) to delight and please Him (pleasure) so one is less likely to behave as one once did before one surrendered to Him. In contrast, when one decides, like I did, to supress the work or ignore it and turn from that work, backslidding occurs. Amazingly, that mighty (worketh) work that God started never ceases & one is pulled back to Him. CONFIRMATION here! Hence, the reason I'm desiring to get back on the purpose of pleasing God. The work that God began on June 8th, 2003 in me is so powerful that even though I've cursed Him, shamed His name by becoming the hypocrit of the century, & defiled my body with sin, that work-this scripture- is being manifested! Among many other verses that I'm sure I'll come across.....Lets see, shall we??
PS.51:10, IS.40:31, Rom.12:2, 2 Cor4:16, Col.3:10 & Titus 3:5
"Not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to His mercy, He saved us, by the washing of regeneration, & renewing of the Holy Ghost."
I chose to study Titus 3:5 because it really seemed to be the applicable to me right now in conjunction with what I learned from Phil.2:13. I also read from vs 3-5. For me, my life is 100% accurate to verse 3. I've been foolish in my choices, very disobedient to the Word, deceived in believing that I was ok, feeding my flesh in immoral ways, living with anger towards God, & being envious of married couples, hatefull towards people @ time...BUT GOD still loves and has appeared to me in countless ways! Even in my mess...I can't count the things He has done to tell me,"I love you & will not forsake you." But back to Titus-There is nothing I have done to deserve His love & will to renew me. It is because of His assured (according) compassion (mercy) Phil.2:13 says His power working in me will in turn cause Titus 3:5 to manifest! The word saved in this verse means deliver, protect, heal, preserve, do well, make whole. He is saving me again (regeration) by renovating (renewing) the Holy Ghost in me. I received the baptism of the Holy Ghost almost 6.5 years ago but because I have neglected it (1 Tim4:14) & grieved it (Eph4:30) it must and WILL BE built up again..saving me from all my pain, anger, & self destruction. PRAISE GOD! I cannot wait!
My Purpose
My husband was killed in a motorcycle accident on August 12, 2008. For 7 months after, I was doing well. I was staying in the Word, attending church regularly and even hosting a weekly Bible study at my home. Some time in Feb. of 09...things changed dramaticaly. Extreme anxiety, depression, extreme weightloss, heavy partying, and countless sins. All of which began when I allowed anger and bitterness towards God to take over my life. I was in and out of the Dr.'s office and on 5 different Rxs. Slowly but surely, I've improved. My weight is back to normal and I'm not taking any more medication. However, I need my relationship with the Lord to improve and to improve greatly! So here I am...the last real Bible study I did was in April. You are reading the words of someone who use to study a minimum of one hour a day and who now barely cracks the Bible open. I'm starting over again. I've called myself starting over dozens of times this past year. I feel keeping up the blog will hold me accountable to my words. I'm also praying for support from the Body. Even if you never respond to my blog, just having a follower would greatly encourage me. Another to note is that God delivered me from alcohol on day 3 of a revival at my church. However, I DECIDED, even though I had no desire or temptation to drink, I drank anyway...just to be social. I made that choice to "undeliver" myself and now I'm drinking again...a lot. So I also need to be held accountable to stop. So this is not only day one of my quest for renewal, but day one on a quest of sobriety. Everyday, I will post my updates and keep a counter of how many days since I last drank. I drank last night so I can't say this is day one since day one isn't over. lol. Anyway, until the study ends...I'll ttyl! Jana
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